Reminsce .

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

♥ Unfaithful .

To my dearest friend shamir ,
Thanks for giving false hopes , thanks for giving me to feel how
is it like to fall in love again .
Eventhough we werent together yet , but those feelings
were beyond than words , even though it didnt last that long enough .
You've been acting strange this few days and today i've got
to find out that you've already attached , it broke my heart and i did tear for
you .
Your reasons for leaving me was because you have give up
on me , dont feel my love & was always jealous with me .
I'm just cluess , whereby i've give my very best to show you
how much i cared about you .
& yet you just don bother to see it .
Good luck with your new girl , hopefully she can give you the
happiness that you've always wanted .
I've delete your number from my phone and i wont bother your
life anymore .
Once again , thanks for breaking my heart
into pieces .

I guess that my decision for not being in a relationship was right after all &
i'm glad i didnt went deeply in love with him yet , without knowing much about him , its a lesson for me .

Don worry guys , i'm alright , mai strong , i won't let this matter to bring me down , i still have my friends & family with me . I still have long way to go in life , i wont spend my every second thinking about something that can let me down when i can used that time to enjoy and learn about life (:

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

♥ I ain't a heartbreaker but a troublemaker .

Ohh lala ~

How are you people ?

Tomorrow i'll be having chemistry paper yet i didnt even start revising ,

Boo sama mai :p

Good luck to the 4n's with their chemisty paper tomorrow ,

Oh yeah , just wanna share a phrase i've read from the malay novel i've borrowed .

" Pokok pangkalnya hati masing-masing ,

asalkan kita saling mempercayai antara satu dan lain ,

kecurigaan tuu tak akan timbul "

Amaciaaam , power tak ;DDDD

I know , ini sungguh random , but the phrase seems very interersting pe :P

I guess thats all for today , gonna study for tomorrow chemistry paper ,
hopefully my mind wont go black upon receiving the paper .
SINGAPORE BOLEEEY !

Lots of love ,
XOXO

Meeera , get well soon babe ,

next time nak pakai pisau berhati-hati , jangan main sondoooool je :p

♥ Sayang kau banyak-banyak .

♥ Wish i can keep you much longer .

Well hello love(s) ,

Time check , its 1.27am and i'm still wide awake and so is Raffe ,

today 4n3 wont be having any paper so therefore we don have to attend school , baaaaik pa .

Uhm , BEST of luck to 4n2 peeps which having Poa today .

Tomorrow , 19 august will be izzuan 18th birthday , hoho , best wishes dearest ex ;D

Umur dh berlanjut perangai tak mo macam-macam uh ,

good luck in finding your love one whom you can cherish & appriciate (:

Bulan ramadhan is round the corner , and i'm prepared for this year fasting month (:

Being all silly and merepek , i asked the peeps ;

" Jom meet up kt bawah block zan & gi sembayang terawih sama-sama "

and the peeps was laughing at my suggestion , rabaak eh -.-

I could still remember 2 years back when i was still all in love with dearest Raffe ,

i was so eager to sembayang terawih so that i can meet raffe and took a glance at him .

Jahat ehy mai , sembayang bukan kerana allah tapi sebab raffe

in additional i was all mengatal & miang ;p

But heeey , that was 2 YEARS back , my relationship with Raffe now will stay has FRIENDS only .

hmm i guess this year gonna be a special one , i guess things fall in place ,

I've learnt to love my family sincerly & learnt that how much they meant to me now .

& i have my wonderful greatest friends whom has been there for me always since

then i learnt what friendship is all about ♥

I guess i'm contented with what i have and wont be asking anything anymore .

but maybe i just had my ONE last wish in the future ,

a lovely husband (fikiran jauh eh niy mai ) ;p

Hopefully the friendship we built will go along way sampai ke anak cucu ye kawan-kawan ;P

& Muhammad Raffe ,
i know something has been bothering
you lately ,
aku akan sentiasa ada untuk kau ffe,
walau macam mane susah pun hidup
niy , tempuhinya dengan fikiran yang tenang ,
jangan simpan masalah kau dengan
sendiri dan penuhi hati dengan rintihan tentang hidup mahupun kesedihan
yang menimpa .
Aku sudi mendengar jika kau mahu
bercerita (:
Kau adalah kawan aku dunia hingga
akhirat , tuhan sahaja tahu betapa untungnya aku mempunyai kawan seperti kamu
semua (:
Lots of love ,
♥ Maizurah

I guess thats all for today , good night readers (:
Love you all very much !
XOXO

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Someone special .

I've been thinking alot since yesterday night , uhm about the future i'm facing thru rite now .
Currently , i lose faith in love, yes , LOSE FAITH , i don get all hyper when ever i receive a msg from someone special like how i used to last time .
I'll would ignore whenever a guy would message me , i don't know since when i have develope this kind of feelings , but its just hard for me to fall in DEEPLY in love with a guy once more .
For god sake , i'm not turning into a lesbian { ffe would kill me if i turn into one }, but this heart of mine just not funtioning properly after i've been thru many heartache & miseries ,

i just need someone to be there for me & convince me his feelings was true & never take me as a fool , Most of all i need someone teach me back to basic how to fall for a guy again & would let go of his insecurities and be firm to himself that he'll be the one for me (:

I just need to settle down , not wondering around anymore .

& to my masam boy , dont jump onto conclusion that this post is for some other guys alright .

Uhm having pms is such a pain in the neck , i'll just start to blaber negative thoughts and think something rather not important when my prelims has already started , ohh i hate having red lights -.- "

weighing scale Pictures, Images and Photos

Currently i cant sleep since i think to much .

I've seen my past photo's where i used to be much thinner and

my weight is only 45 kg and my waist size used to be 28cm

now , i'm 50kg and my size is 32 cm

i've gained 5 KILO & my waist gone bigger to 4cm wideeer in just 8 MONTHS !

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaah , stress banget .

& Now i'm hereby gonna lose weight from TODAY onwards .

16 august 2009 , 12.50pm

I'm gonna make a vow to myself that

i'm gonna lose weight and resist all temptation on food no matter how hungry ,

i'm not gonna skip my prayers without specific reason .

i'm gonna improve in my attitude towards my friend & family .

i'm gonna cut down on my swearing words ,

& i'm going to be a better person :D

I know i'm just being random but i just cant keep all this any more ,

i just have to type it on my blog to remind myself . So i think i've done it ;DDD

Take care people , lots of love .

Saturday, August 15, 2009

♥ Whine my heart and i will twirl you around .

As promise Ayim , i've upload your video .

Pssst , people this is the original song compose by Ayim iron boy & co ,

lagu sedap , kalau nak lagu mintak mai :D

Well , today's outing didnt start well , had an arguement with mum .

And i've been mood swing all the way & sorry lala for my attitude just now .

Pms kot , you know i know la girls how its gonna be like when you are having red light ..

Train to temp then off to geylang , watch Taa amal mini concert ,

Fadhilah malumalu kucing oii ,

Heh , had lunch there then off home with mum ,

Didnt continue my journey to esplanade since mum was tired and no one had to accompany her home & i wasnt keen about being all hyper today ..

Sorry girls :(

Then home sweet home ,

And i've realise that my hair start to curl back like old times :(

ohoh !

Mum promise me that she will rebond my hair again IF i put do the chores daily ;DDDD

YESSAAAA ~

&& i had a really weird dream in the early morning , i've dreamt that i went steady with KOKO .

What the hack bley ? Asal tibe-tibe dier muncul ? -.-

I guess thats all for todaaaaaay ;D

Night people .

& muhammad shamir , saya rindu awak lurh .

Friday, August 14, 2009

♥ Get yourself together .

Good evening my dearest reader(s) .

How ya today ?

Yadayada , lets skip the introductions ,

Before hand i'm gonna make my apology to dearest shamir ,
with my harsh words yesterday which might hurt your feelings
,
ampunn ye .
I'm just penning down my thoughts ,
Thanks for being patience with all my RANDOM attitude .
My friends has been thru all of it , and they survive &
understand it too well .
Rite guysss ?
Once again , thousands of apology for my sillyness (:

Mother tougue paper was just fine , manage to do it all .
Tommorow will be going out with cuzzzens , accompany them while they go " GUGUGAGA " with their idols and i'm just gonna sit down and watch .

Lala wanted to reach there early at 1pm when the show start at 3 pm , BAIK pe siang habis ,

debate punya debate , i give in since she made something for didicazli , kesian la pulak kn .

uhm sedara punya pasal apa-apa pn bleeeey ...

Follow lala & watch Didicazli at geylang then off to esplanade to watch sleeq live at esplanade with nurul .

Then , idol mai maneee ?

Kat belakang ice box kot ?

Haha , fakefake , currently i don have any idol too adore yet nor in the future ,

coz i'n not into it ,

but i'm not looking down at those fans who adore their idols ,

because different people has the different way of thinking (:

Uhm , i'm bored , real bored .

Siti Fatihah , Get well soon taw (:

Sayaaang kau , remember we'll have a outing together after prelims (: