Thanks for giving false hopes , thanks for giving me to feel how is it like to fall in love again .
Eventhough we werent together yet , but those feelings were beyond than words , even though it didnt last that long enough .
You've been acting strange this few days and today i've got to find out that you've already attached , it broke my heart and i did tear for you .
Your reasons for leaving me was because you have give up on me , dont feel my love & was always jealous with me .
I'm just cluess , whereby i've give my very best to show you how much i cared about you .
& yet you just don bother to see it .
Good luck with your new girl , hopefully she can give you the happiness that you've always wanted .
I've delete your number from my phone and i wont bother your life anymore .
Once again , thanks for breaking my heart into pieces .
I guess that my decision for not being in a relationship was right after all & i'm glad i didnt went deeply in love with him yet , without knowing much about him , its a lesson for me .
Don worry guys , i'm alright , mai strong , i won't let this matter to bring me down , i still have my friends & family with me . I still have long way to go in life , i wont spend my every second thinking about something that can let me down when i can used that time to enjoy and learn about life (:
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
♥ I ain't a heartbreaker but a troublemaker .
Ohh lala ~
How are you people ?
Tomorrow i'll be having chemistry paper yet i didnt even start revising ,
Boo sama mai :p
Good luck to the 4n's with their chemisty paper tomorrow ,
(:
Oh yeah , just wanna share a phrase i've read from the malay novel i've borrowed .
" Pokok pangkalnya hati masing-masing ,
asalkan kita saling mempercayai antara satu dan lain ,
kecurigaan tuu tak akan timbul "
Amaciaaam , power tak ;DDDD
I know , ini sungguh random , but the phrase seems very interersting pe :P
I guess thats all for today , gonna study for tomorrow chemistry paper , hopefully my mind wont go black upon receiving the paper . SINGAPORE BOLEEEY !
Lots of love , XOXO
Meeera , get well soon babe ,
next time nak pakai pisau berhati-hati , jangan main sondoooool je :p
♥ Sayang kau banyak-banyak .
♥ Wish i can keep you much longer .
Well hello love(s) ,
Time check , its 1.27am and i'm still wide awake and so is Raffe ,
today 4n3 wont be having any paper so therefore we don have to attend school , baaaaik pa .
Uhm , BEST of luck to 4n2 peeps which having Poa today .
Tomorrow , 19 august will be izzuan 18th birthday , hoho , best wishes dearest ex ;D
Umur dh berlanjut perangai tak mo macam-macam uh ,
good luck in finding your love one whom you can cherish & appriciate (:
Bulan ramadhan is round the corner , and i'm prepared for this year fasting month (:
Being all silly and merepek , i asked the peeps ;
" Jom meet up kt bawah block zan & gi sembayang terawih sama-sama "
and the peeps was laughing at my suggestion , rabaak eh -.-
I could still remember 2 years back when i was stillall in love with dearest Raffe ,
i was so eager to sembayang terawih so that i can meet raffe and took a glance at him .
Jahat ehy mai , sembayang bukan kerana allah tapi sebab raffe
in additional i was all mengatal & miang ;p
But heeey , that was 2 YEARS back , my relationship with Raffe now will stay has FRIENDS only .
hmm i guess this year gonna be a special one , i guess things fall in place ,
I've learnt to love my family sincerly & learnt that how much they meant to me now .
& i have my wonderful greatest friends whom has been there for me always since
then i learnt what friendship is all about ♥
I guess i'm contented with what i have and wont be asking anything anymore .
but maybe i just had my ONE last wish in the future ,
a lovely husband (fikiran jauh eh niy mai ) ;p
Hopefully the friendship we built will go along way sampai ke anak cucu ye kawan-kawan ;P
& Muhammad Raffe ,
i know something has been bothering you lately ,
aku akan sentiasa ada untuk kau ffe,
walau macam mane susah pun hidup niy , tempuhinya dengan fikiran yang tenang ,
jangan simpan masalah kau dengan sendiri dan penuhi hati dengan rintihan tentang hidup mahupun kesedihan yang menimpa .
Aku sudi mendengar jika kau mahu bercerita (:
Kau adalah kawan aku dunia hingga akhirat , tuhan sahaja tahu betapa untungnya aku mempunyai kawan seperti kamu semua (:
Lots of love ,
♥ Maizurah
I guess thats all for today , good night readers (: Love you all very much ! XOXO
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Someone special .
I've been thinking alot since yesterday night , uhm about the future i'm facing thru rite now . Currently , i lose faith in love, yes , LOSE FAITH , i don get all hyper when ever i receive a msg from someone special like how i used to last time . I'll would ignore whenever a guy would message me , i don't know since when i have develope this kind of feelings , but its just hard for me to fall in DEEPLY in love with a guy once more . For god sake , i'm not turning into a lesbian{ ffe would kill me if i turn into one }, but this heart of mine just not funtioning properly after i've been thru many heartache & miseries ,
i just need someone to be there for me & convince me his feelings was true & never take me as a fool , Most of all i need someone teach me back to basic how to fall for a guy again & would let go of his insecurities and be firm to himself that he'll be the one for me (:
I just need to settle down , not wondering around anymore .
& to my masam boy , dont jump onto conclusion that this post is for some other guys alright .
Uhm having pms is such a pain in the neck , i'll just start to blaber negative thoughts and think something rather not important when my prelims has already started , ohh i hate having red lights -.- "
Currently i cant sleep since i think to much .
I've seen my past photo's where i used to be much thinner and
my weight is only 45 kg and my waist size used to be 28cm
now , i'm 50kg and my size is 32 cm
i've gained 5 KILO & my waist gone bigger to 4cm wideeer in just 8 MONTHS !
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaah , stress banget .
& Now i'm hereby gonna lose weight from TODAY onwards .
16 august 2009 , 12.50pm
I'm gonna make a vow to myself that
i'm gonna lose weight and resist all temptation on food no matter how hungry ,
i'mnot gonna skip my prayers without specific reason .
i'm gonnaimprove in my attitude towards my friend & family .
i'mgonna cut down on my swearing words ,
& i'm going to be a better person :D
I know i'm just being random but i just cant keep all this any more ,
i just have to type it on my blog to remind myself . So i think i've done it ;DDD
Take care people , lots of love .
Saturday, August 15, 2009
♥ Whine my heart and i will twirl you around .
As promise Ayim , i've upload your video .
Pssst , people this is the original song compose by Ayim iron boy & co ,
lagu sedap , kalau nak lagu mintak mai :D
Well , today's outing didnt start well , had an arguement with mum .
And i've been mood swing all the way & sorry lala for my attitude just now .
Pms kot , you know i know la girls how its gonna be like when you are having red light ..
Train to temp then off to geylang , watch Taa amal mini concert ,
Fadhilah malumalu kucing oii ,
Heh , had lunch there then off home with mum ,
Didnt continue my journey to esplanade since mum was tired and no one had to accompany her home & i wasnt keen about being all hyper today ..
Sorry girls :(
Then home sweet home ,
And i've realise that my hair start to curl back like old times :(
ohoh !
Mum promise me that she will rebond my hair again IF i put do the chores daily ;DDDD
YESSAAAA ~
&& i had a really weird dream in the early morning , i've dreamt that i went steady with KOKO .
What the hack bley ? Asal tibe-tibe dier muncul ? -.-
I guess thats all for todaaaaaay ;D
Night people .
& muhammad shamir , saya rindu awak lurh .
Friday, August 14, 2009
♥Get yourself together .
Good evening my dearest reader(s) .
How ya today ?
Yadayada , lets skip the introductions ,
Before hand i'm gonna make my apology to dearest shamir ,
with my harsh words yesterday which might hurt your feelings ,
ampunn ye .
I'm just penning down my thoughts ,
Thanks for being patience with all my RANDOM attitude .
My friends has been thru all of it , and they survive & understand it too well .
Rite guysss ?
Once again , thousands of apology for my sillyness (:
Mother tougue paper was just fine , manage to do it all . Tommorow will be going out with cuzzzens , accompany them while they go " GUGUGAGA " with their idols and i'm just gonna sit down and watch .
Lala wanted to reach there early at 1pm when the show start at 3 pm , BAIK pe siang habis ,
debate punya debate , i give in since she made something for didicazli , kesian la pulak kn .
uhm sedara punya pasal apa-apa pn bleeeey ...
Follow lala & watch Didicazli at geylang then off to esplanade to watch sleeq live at esplanade with nurul .
Then , idol mai maneee ?
Kat belakang ice box kot ?
Haha , fakefake , currently i don have any idol too adore yet nor in the future ,
coz i'n not into it ,
but i'm not looking down at those fans who adore their idols ,
because different people has the different way of thinking (:
Uhm , i'm bored , real bored .
Siti Fatihah , Get well soon taw (:
Sayaaang kau , remember we'll have a outing together after prelims (:
Thursday, August 13, 2009
♥We are just drifting away .
Hello world (!)
I had social studies paper today , but aint confident enought if i could score well .
My plans to go gym with the peeps was cancel .
& my dearest ffe didnt atend for today paper due to lack of sleep .
Meet up with lala and she came over , co incidently zahara was here too !
Slack with the girls .
Since i was eager to work out today , went to the gym with fadhilah ,
and we did great , gonna make it our weekly plan from now on .
Found group of yckss fellows in the gym and they were being friendly ,
they will keep on waving at us and smile .
Thats all for today .
& This is for you . You once said , you love me , but you push me off the ground with all your negative thinking about me . You once said, you'll take good care of me , but my heart has been crush again & again . You once said , i was the one you were looking for , but you shove me away to find another guy . You once said ,you always makes me happy , but why am i in tears now ? My heart , i've been saving it for you , but you've broken it into pieces . I'm already weak to take another step closer to you if you keep on putting a gap on us . I've tried my very best to understand you , but why cant you do the same ? I don't blame you , but dearest , i have my flaws too .
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
Tomorrow is my prelims , first paper ; English . I'm 101% not ready . & I'm gonna cut my hair shorter in length .
Good luck to my fellows schoolmates who's taking their prelims tomorrow ;D
Monday, August 10, 2009
♥ I always call my cousin because we’re so close.
We’re almost like sisters, and we’re also close because our moms are sisters
Mood ; Tired
Curently listening to ; Unbeautiful- Lesley Roy
Warning ; its gonna be a loooooooong post (:
Yesterday was a blast . Caca pick my brother & i at 12am sharp and we are off to Moi's house . Slack there and nurul still hasnt decide what to wear and it took her an HOUR to dress up and make up , the worst part was ,
she keep on changing her clothes as she thinks it wasnt right for her . HAHA , nurul2 . Then off to pick moi then went to granny cemetery ,
it was my first time there & somehow i nearly teared looking at granny's grave .
Eventhough my relationship with granny aint that close ,
Eventhough we hasnt got that much of memories in me , but i still remember the memories i had with her during raya , and it was her wish before her death that she's gonna live with caca at hougang and caca bought that house specially for granny , but i guess it was meant for her , she passed away before she could even stay there ....
I love you granny , i knew its too late for me to say this .
Clean grannys grave , and said some prayers ,
While moi ela visits her dad's grave , the nurul take couples of pictures and it was beautifully taken , and if happen she's gonna take photograher as her profession ,
i'll 100% support her , coz she have the TALENT .
Words of encouragement to nurul , Never give up aites , coz you have already what it takes to be a photographer and it takes a little more effort to persue your dreams . You go GIRL (:
After visiting the cemetry we went to moi's new house , kat toa payoh oii . HAHA , it easy for me to meet nurul from now onwards :D Slack there and have our lunch at mac , meet couples of beattyians ,
and especially the-unfriendly-girl . Masih tak taw sapa ? Tanya la mai (:
Came back & my favourite boy was already reach tpy Happy gileeeer ~
We had our dinner at geylang , there were some how a conflict between us , as we wants to catch the fireworks and if we take our dinner there , it's gonna be very late & there will be a MASSIVE jam at marina bay . In the end follow Didi and we marathon the WHOLE marina to esplanade somehow we manage to catch the tiny bits of the fireworks , coz by the time we reach there its already 8.20pm ndp is gonna end soon . Uhm And i swear , i run like a crazy lady with gyash , kalau gini hari2 bley kurus . Haha !
Meet uncle rosli with her beauiful wife and daughter , and didi taught her son to propose to uncle rosli daughter , hahaha , sumpah kekek . Kecik-kecik dah gatal sedara aku niy ,
But who cares , my nephew is a hot dude man ,
mane-mane perempuan tengok dier MESTI cair ^^ HAHAHA .
End our day with supper at tekka -.- & obviously NO thosai for me , but i ate rice with Yogurts . YUCKS !
PicturesPICTURESpictasss !
Nurul's work . Actually there's more ,
but i'll make you guys wait ;P
The ladies (:
The ladies in action uh , touch up sane sini , and it took us 1 HOUR !
My favourite boy !
Proposing , hugging and they eventually kiss ;D
Thats all for today hunny , come back some other day ;DDDD
Saturday, August 8, 2009
♥ I took a chance, I took a shot
and you might think Im bulletproof, but Im not .
Mood ; Boreeeeed
Currently listening to ;When Love Takes Over-David guetta ft Kelly Rowland
I've receive my keyboard baaack (!)
With less fuss using the On screen keyboard ;DD
Saturday has been always dreadful for me , no activites ,
just at home and be a potato crouch .
My peeps hasnt been online since just now , nor Shaaaaaamir .
:(
Tomorrow will be Singapore 44th Birthday .
Will have an outing with cuzzy's , lorry ride & watch Fireworks .
Yeay(!)
Currently theonly problem was no one update me about tomorrow event .
Uhm , nurul if you happen to passby my blog , please give me a call aites ?
4 More days to my prelims & it will be held at the hall with air cons ,
Be VERY jealous people , teeehee .
But on the ligther note , i'm totallynot ready for my prelims ,
Iwishcan rewind the time & wish that i'm 13th again ; Enjoying life .
Uhm but i guess , No pain no gain ,
i've reach this far till secondry 4 why don't i give my very best :D
Best of luck to ALL the beattyians & those who are taking their prelims this wednesday .
Thats all for today . Goodnight people , sweet dreams (:
& to meera dearest have fun when you are in malaysia & have a jorney back home safetly dear ,
Sayang kau banyak2 ah kucing! ♥
Friday, August 7, 2009
Currently i cant blog due to my keyboard has been confiscate by dad ,
and its killing me to use thr on screen keyboard and have to click letters by letters .
I update once i get my keybord back.
sungguh PATHETIC !
Thursday, August 6, 2009
♥Together forever, never apart.
Maybe in distance, but never in heart .
Just a short post for today , because i'm exhausted from today's jogging
Uhm as for today , i've decided to go jogging with the peeps ,
to lose some *ehemehem* fats .
And proudly to say , i've made 2 round th stadium and 4 rounds in the gym treadmill ;D
I'm going to make it a rountine for the peeps to jog every thurdays ,
A healthy friend is a healthy friendship , betul taaak ?
& today favourite part of the day , my jaw has been hit with a hockey stick by classmate .
Bola kecil sangat , sebab tuu muke mai jugak dorang aim ;D .
But i'm alright , it just that my jaws ache for sometime .
Thats all for today , good night people (:
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
♥Maybe my heart aint ready for another love story .
Hey there sweetheart (:
I'm alright now , spill my hearts out about the problems i had with Dad & Bro ,
Somehow felt much better than i usually do ;D
Mum has upgrade her mio plan , nad my internet modem has gone to Jet speed .
No more lagging when i view to my blog , HEBAT kn !
Cable teevee has been install too &
i can catch all my favourite music video in addition to this upgrade ,
i can watch all the latest movie with my cable teeeveee .
Gosssh , happy gyleeeer .
Anywaaay lets talk about yesterday , since i wasnt in the mood talk post about it .
Hoho , yesterday met up with the peeps , having lots of laughter ,
We made alot of silly things in the mac uh , hahah sumpah kite orang paling kecoh .
Efa made this up ,
" We girls have the same thing , but different in size "
Sumpah niy kekek If you guys knowwhat she meant ! HAHAHA !
There were this incident when the peeps was smoking , i intentionally say out loud .
"UNDERAGE-UNDERAGE" just for the sake of laughter ,
♥ A friend is one to whom you can pour out the contents of your heart .
Knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness,
blow the rest away.
I wont eloborate how the day when today , coz my pm shows it all .
Thanks to the 3 wonderful Darling whose been there for me (:
I guess they are the reason now for me to keep on living ,
coz nothing else matters anymore .
Sunday, August 2, 2009
♥ A wish came true at last .
Hey yaw hunny , how are you people ? I'm veryvery exhausted from yesterday events , 2 things in a row . Uhm , my aunty IMEE wedding was very grand , i was a lonely kid there , wondering around in such a big place , & the wedding was very well plan & how i wish that mine in the future would be similar like kak Imee's , fikiran jauh ehy mai :D hmm , Congratulations to the newly couples , kak IMEE & abg Farid (:
Took a long route way home , 1 hour in the bus , stop at bishan , meet old neighbour than went home . Quickly change & caca pick us up . I feel like fainting with all the running here and there . The kenduri start at 8.15pm & the orphans reach at 7.45pm , i swear my i nearly teared up when looking at them , at the same time i wanted to hug them (:
YADAYADA , the events ended at 12pm . Caca wanted us to visit my aunt at Nuh , but uhm , cancel the plan , since mum was very exhausted .
Today pulak when to dad's side kenduri , mak oi , ley mati sia macaaam gini -.-
Thank god i survive ehy ;DDD
Thats ALL for today :D
Oh yea , i've been inform that couples of blogger cant upload pictures nor they can change their fonts colour . I've figure out to solve this problem , kindly click on the link below . (:
