guess should not been dreaming in the first place.
haha guys good at sweet talk and he treated girls equally including me as a fren.
and still wait for a girl name dewi.haiz.
fantasy crush!.
shld stop thinking abt the positive when it will always come out negaitve.
sakit ati siol!
haiz.!
haha mai byk jantan kt luar sana!
fcuk all his sweetalk!
saying those sweet stuff!
hack care !
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be yourself days was yesterday.and i plan the put fit 2 days ago (* oke i lied it was 1 week la hor ! !)
haha.so i wore a dress with leggings and belt with shawl. and i was hoping would get a harsh comment.
but surprisingly i got a sweet comment.
ppl were being super nice la.
and aidil me and zul got to talk pic together.even thoug zul is still immature.huehue.
and obviously *he was sizzling hot cnt get my eyes on hym. if i am not wrong i caught hym too !
huehue! like REAL!
haha so we went and took tons of photo and i even took photo of aidil shuffling ! hoho! wee~ so went out of school quickly to catch ge smart movie.sham was so kiasu la haha she wants to get first no matter what, at last we were early and have our lunch at long john babe!
then watch get smart
overall the show not bad la . . .
hehes then we cam whore giler babi nyer.
go back home on9
*he was on9 but i nvr chat with hym hoping he would start the convo first. but at last nvr
and nabil saying something they its impossible!
he say i am hot
darwish say i look good.
and SHARIFAH say
my out fit not bad look like punk princess!! huehue!!
&& later late at night he on9 and i go chat with hym FIRST!
and *he say that my shawl look nice .
he call me babe! hahahahah! happy siol
and i was sleeping happily after that! wee!
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everybody has its own secret huh ! well i have my own!..
well at times i have a low self asteem. and at times i think that i don deserve any"guys" friend such as ppl added me in frienster and wanna know more abt me, coz of the "preety" editted pictures.
whereby in life so called in school i am just the same as ugly betty added with horrible skin and eye bags.
at time i just felt like break down and cried think i shouldnt buy the "preety" out fit to suit me coz i don deserve it.
i am just a horrible ugly freak which wanna feel likes how it feels to be preety.
at times when ppl called me names , i just feel like slashing myself and wonder when my time will come.
and i felt that i have 2 different personality whereby i am a "preety" lady with beutiful skins while reality i look like ugly betty!
and sometimes the i was just faking a smile on my face.
think why i deserve a wonderfull ppl on my life whereby i don appriciate myself.
3 ppl had talk to me straight forward passing out straight comment abt me right on my face,but still i put up a smile.
and sometime i just keep dreaming that my secret crush shall be mine and keep on dreaming without realising the reality.
and sometime i felt like locking my self in a room and nvr come out .
this thursday coming and i am not sure if i am looking forward for it with the secret i just share,
i wonder when i can be a preety lady is well like by everyone without be given nasty comment .
and i envy those preety ladys out there
reality and fantast don clash with each other
sorry guys this post quite emotinally DISGUSTING!
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