haha i got a new about mira and that pantat~! mira been hurt and she got so called the same road like me la..kite dua mcm jiwe ehk~!haha he treat us both the same one..he treat mira and said to mira the same thinq la like what he DID say to me..haha amd slowly he hates me..will that happen to mira too?..haiz ffe ffe...but this incident makes me and mira EVEEEN CLOSER..thanks ya pantat~!haha we two shares a dark secret..which we two only knows..haha today nvr come school coz not feelinq well then get a call from mira she too was at home..after from sick bay gosh didnt know this thinq will effect her health~!and she maybe have to transfer to hospital i think?..but no matter what i still there for u~~!then i call her and we chat on the phone abt u know who~!..hahah then i ask mira what so special about ffe that makes both of us loves hym so much..and quess both of us cant really answet it...haiz ffe is like makinq our girl frenship in to hate la..get what i meant..first i was abt to hate mira coz she stead with mira..and now mira is abt to hate **** coz he is abt to stead with he told mira that he wanted to be frens only...and i guess he have someone in his mind coz he too said that too me when he is sooo in love with amira..WTF CANN?this makes me hate hym MORE MORE MORE..first he hurts be badly now my bitch..he gone way too far and i gld that this incident make me hates hym more and make me and mira into NO MORE SECRETS between us =)
fatihah,mira,kila,sham,odelia & efa is totally my bitch now..and nothinq shall break them apart from me..guess i don need a guy to make me happy when i have them XD
and my msn no more VIRUS~!!!WEEE~!NO MORE NAKED PICS OR WHAT EVER THING SEND TOO PPL SOMEMORE HORNY GUYS~!
hey was up..heheh todya life as usual sucky damn bored lalalala..been very sick today high fever i think..just feelinq like vomitinq...=__="..hha GOOD NEWS...everytime i see that pantat the hatred feelings is there..so there wont be any love/miss feelinqgs for hymm yeah~!..then durinq art lesson i was bbored..so go out ask mira go toilet ..me efa and mira cam whore inside toilet ..COOL huh~!
then after school accompany mira for her lsp..then efa the nuts go take my hairband and run around like a naughty monkey hahah SHE BULLY ME ONE~!haha.then after mira went up to her class i went out lepak at rc while waitinq for mirasyq.then wait wait wait..go school find her don have skali saw her at rc..so meet her..saw that pantat also..ahahx.but hack care hym..so i go buy bubble tea come back still ignoring that pantat..pretend he is not there..then he ask me why i baad mood..i kept quite..then he say la "haus " talkinq to me i say go drink water lor..hah yeap yeap i am talkinq in a rude way too bad he make me into this choice..=X.then go back home mummy take my fone..hahah at last got..i got back that pantat sms why i bad mood i say la for my ow n good..ahahand if i bad mood also good mar nvr disturb hym anymore what ever shit..and i also fufilinq his wish..he hated me rite..and he don wan me to disturb hym or take and EXTRA concern about hym so ya i am doing it now..haha =)...and my mirasyg got also the same problem as me coz of that pantat..haiz..syg syq..give mon the chance to heal ur heart~!.thats my advise to you from me..and oh ya..from now own i want to CHERISH my frenship more with the girls..." i don need a man to make me happy"~!and oh ya i read my old bloq just now..haha alst time i sooo noob and shit..now matured liow..miss the memories..but at least i have the bloq to preserve the memories i had +)
hey~!today is the happiest day of my life..;D you know what i found out that HE REALLY LOVESSS ME SO MUCH.and nvr wants to forget the memories..he even don want to ignore me ..and really please to get my msq..omq i was touch till i moves to tears..omg this is the HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE LA..haha then skali my hand accidently hit a sharp thing and kanna slash my hand without knowinq..coz i am too happy lor..ahah..i nvr felt THOSE HAPPINIEST BEFORE.. wahh he is the one for me lor..he recover my heart sia with all those words..I AM DAMN DAMN HAPPY TODAY..till now i am movinq to tears..OMG TODAY IS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE..today what date ar 29/1 rite..wahh must remember this day..coz HE LOVES me like i loves hym la sia..and he NEVER hurt me before infact he always try and makes me smile...he is the GUY i have been wishinq for..I AM DAMN DAMN HAPPY...hahahahahahaahahah...EHK JOIN MY HAPPINESS TODAY OK..~!!!
;'D
hey mira..what u been thru is not as worst then mine..turst me he loves u..and be appriciate that u nvr land in a stuation like me or being like me..YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY TAW..like me~!!see i am soooooo happy with my life now omg,.~!HAHAHAHAHAhey today is the best day of maii life la seii...haha school as per normal.being sooo restlesss today coz of hym =..hmm hah so yeah after school hang out and accompany sham eatinq maggi at first don wan coz mum ask me go back early coz ppl viewinq our house and all...so hah accompany sit sit eat then talk abt *hym.and ask hym and all abt those old memories haha and i prepare a letter to give hym but i hold it bac after what sham told me it makes me stop and realise what i done is all useless..makes me wake up from the dreams and all..ahah..then waited for mira wait and wait she nvr shown up so wanted go school there wait for her just nice she came out..hah then she said she was hungary so went to 7-11 and buy food la..then as we walk pass there's a kindergarnent kids la..i was about to say hi and one of the look at me and say "DISGUSTING GIRL" i was like =____=" oke..small kid small kid..zzz..then as sham walk pass the girl again said to sham "STUPID GIRL" saying it repeatly la..sham stop and stare "wtf the girl call me stupid ar idoit.." i was like sham small kid la .and she said "small kid learn banana,apple all not stupid ..bloody farker"ahah i was like chill chill..she go point a middle finger to tha kid..and i say ehk walk la don lose ur temper on a small kid..and we 3 girl laugh damn hard on shams reation with that small kid..ahah then go 7-11 mira buy food we 3 girl outside see vendinq machine..and theres a vendinq machine abt pooh bear all sham say she wants to buy for fun and ask efa buy also la..i was tellinq efa to buy this tofu doll so kiut and she bought it green colour..then it was so kiut makes me wants to buy them tmr and put on my hp..then we go sit down sit since its 3.30pm wait la till its 4 and send sham off.skali sham say mr singh he cominq cominq..we kancionq alr..faster2 put hp..donno our topic all gone where..skali mr singh say why u all girls here for i say wait for fren..he ask which fren i say mira..so we go on talkinq and talkinq la..skali my phone vibrate its on my butt pocket there..and mr singh beside me..so i slowly turn my boddy 180 degree don wan let mr singh see my vibrate butt sure he noes phone..so hah got aways with it,..reach home say my BELOVED aunty DIDI..happy la..talk to her abt sex.whats yes or no..what love or not..its just soo open la talk to her u know.haha she is open minded..I LOVE DIDI CAN..and she told me la love comes when the time is right...study first after all ur o's and n's and if that right guy come to you and say he loves u then go for it..its no use la heart break over a guy..move on with ur life..coz there were 20000 milion guys out there...he shall come to you..not the other way let love come to you slowly..haha so touch by her wordds makes me love her more more more more my best best aunty la seii..and she has been distubinq my msn contacts la hahah omq she is sooo evil~!
Dibuai Rindu Semalam
Dalam sepi terkenang diri mu
Ku sendiri mengharung rindu
Kau berjanji sehidup semati
Tinggal janji mu kau bawa bersama
Kau biarkan diri ku melara
Mengemis cinta suci dari mu
Apa daya aku jatuh cinta
Jatuh hati kepada yang tak sudi
( korus )
Mengapakah aku kau dustai
Kasih suci telah kau khianati
Manis kata hanyalah di bibir
Meranalah jiwaku
Mengapakah kau simpan dendam mu
Kasih dulu tertanam di kalbu
Hingga aku menjadi mangsanya
Kau samakan dirinya...
Dengan kasih dan sayang ku
Cuba kau rasakan nya
Apa yang telah aku merasainya
Kasih telah ku beri tidak kau menghargai
Impian hati ini hancur tidak tercari
Pergi sayang pergi
Tinggalkan aku sendiri
Ku... diusik kenangan bersama mu
Ku... dibuai rindu semalam
( ulang dari korus )
Cuba kau rasakan nya
Apa yang telah aku merasainya
Kasih telah ku beri tidak kau menghargai
Impian hati ini hancur tidak tercari
Pergi sayang pergi
Tinggalkan aku sendiri
this sonq make me weep before i went to sleep ='(...
i miss hym damn badly can..yesterday i sleep and dream that i view his phone contact list..and i scroll the name maizurah..and there he wrote "maizurah kenangku"...it makes me woke up from my dream and weepinq alone..OH GOD...why hym out of other guys out there..why is it HYM give me the very hard impact to my heart..why la why~!!!...
dambaan cinta
ungkapan kata selindung hasrat nan di hati
andainya ditafsir terserlah makna yang tersembunyi
renungan mata bukan pandangan biasa
bertahun andai terjalin hingga waktu ini
gurauan mesra menghiasi masa kita bersama
semakin berputik perasaan ini
korus 1:
kini baru kusedari
selami ini kau kusayangi
andai bukan itu hakikatnya
mengapa rindu yang kurasa
mungkin tiada kufahami
tidak dapat kunafikan lagi
beban rahsia kian membakar diri
kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicita
mungkinkah dibiarkan terdampar kasih tak kesampain
naluri berbisik bukannya dambaan cinta
korus 1
korus 2:
ikhlas kunyatakan
kau yang kusayangi kau yang kucintai
walau tak mampu kumiliki
ingin kuluahkan mungin satu hari
kan terbuka pintu hati dapat jua kau menerima
diriku akhirnya
hooo....
ulang korus 2this sonq nvr fails to make me remember the memorys of hym la..just now blast my hp mp3 suddenly it turn on this sonq..i was abt to switch to other sonq la coz down wan remember the memorys of hym..but slowly i listen to it..and by doing that nvr fails to make me cry..coz he is the person who introduce that sonq this sonq to me..and sometimes we listen to it together la..like in msn..and we also fallen for this sonq..but yet now i listen alone in tears..haiz what makes hym change so fast..because of me..i don think so.i just seriosly one the old hym..the new hym makes me hate hym more and more.haiz dambaan cinta.. is the sonq of hym and me..the song recalls back the time i and hym msqing each other and he nvr fails to make me laugh.and if he online msn he will be the one who will shout HEY to me..and if that day was the worse day of my life...it will turn the other way just bu chattinq with hym.he is a sweet guy whois loved by everyone...if he has the problem he shall share it with me..no matter what from love life to his frens..i seriously miss hym =..wonder if he knows..i can see he hates me that much..i seriously do..i just one the old hym back..guess he don even wish to hear my name nor my msq...maii tk taw aper nk buat to get hym back the old person who is loved...haiz dambaan cinta...maii rinduu dier sangat..haha padahal pader dier seeinq my face makes hym puke..i am so so sorry if i kept on botherinq u..but i wan the old u back.i wan the person who will greet me a good morninq a wish me a good night ..i want the person who will say hey in msn and would smile if upon seeing me .i wan all that..can we turn yesterday back around ..can we ..? guess not ..he just sees me as a normal girl.or maybe a stranger and not more then that..='(...dambaan cinta
heehh..hello ppl~!muahah today had fun i think = school as per normal..and guess what... I DON MISS HYM ANYMORE LA SEII~!happy one whole day nvr think of hym~!guess first less moody coz i was dead bored coz its ENGLISH la babe..hahax..then have pe.recess then english and art~!wee in class on hp and listen to music mr pon don mind..he is a good teacher ...he is my fav lor..then draw art nicely ..ahah sit beside zul COZ HE WANTS LISTEN SONG ON MY PHONE.not more then that lor..hehehs..fun..then after school went outside buy bubble tea and thn theres a grp of sec 1 malay guess ..then i predict they will be my juniors la..hahax just predict lor.go bck school skali remember got soccer faster2 run and watch coz my class la seii in the tornament..they lose =(..but they DID real well lor..proud of them..~!HEHES..then i saw HYM..think i fallen for hym lor..hehes..but it just a crush not more then that..then 2.30 go fall in..siallah we sec 3 sllack kena pumpinq la sia under the sun damn damn damn hot the road my hand got burn la seii..we all sec 3 also must buck up la..we takinq over..come on sec 3 jia yous~! don bring ncdcc down can..haha..then saw sec 1..the guys at the bubble tea WAS my JUNIORS..AHAHA happy lor..all nice..play play play..they had fun so do we..but sec 3 alot pumpinq..hehes..oh ya my junior mr muhammad umair hafiz is hotstuff =) ok tata wanna go feelinq with my jiwang sonq~!..mauahah you know what..i manage not to think of hym for one whole day..YEAH~!
hey IGNORE THE RECENT POST..hahax got misunderstandinq muahahahah..hehe i fall in love with MR ....photoscape..HEHEHE mepek ar mai..haha so yeah..nothing much to post just to tell u guys ignore my recent post..and my wish of forgettinq hym is wider and wiider heheh damn happy..maii YOU CANN DO IT~!mauahahahah
hey girl..
don make it so bad that i wan hym la..I AM NOT~!
dier..tapi aku cumer sakit hati biler dier ckp dier benci aku...i don wan his answer on me coz u alr know he hates me kn~!..haiz..just don post ur blogs abt me la..aku tk nk dier taw.and i doesnt whats his answer..i don even care coz i know the answer alr la..its you..amek la dier.aku tk kisah...hati aku dh pudar ok..so just take hym..beilieve me he is for u...meant for u..jgn risau aku tk kn rampas dier..dier pn dh benci aku so its easy for u to have hym...go for it ok..wish for ur sucess..and i am not forcinq anyone..padahal aku tk contact dier pn..aper yg force force giler ehk haha ...tk main ar force force~!go have hym la..GOOO.no one stopinq u..~!AND I WONT SNATCH HYM AWAY FROM YOU~!saper seii aku~!aku tk kan terhegei2 kt dier nyer kau jgn takut kae =)
haha today had a preety sloew boring day when sham not around got goood news and bad news..lets start with the good good news..haha me and siti is back la seii~!..wee happy i meant felt guilty la treatinq her all like that but things goes on smoothly just now happy to have my girls back together...hoho then chemistry class very sian la..rash keep on pokinq me ..very irratatinq la seii..haiz..i have no feelings for rash anymore la and i make it clear NO MORE FEELINGS~!...understand..i will try avoid hym..i don wan to hate anymore ppl..haiz oh ya nearly forget..abt daniel incident..haha aidil was writinq a kick me sign on a post it sticker..and guhan playfully put at daniel back..without daniel knowinq dil being a nice guy take it out la..then samuel all spray water at dan and amin all.and kian hui kick dan's chair he cant take its he shout to guhan" eh come la sia" then they were panic ar..and dan's went back to his seat..skali skali i heard amin say dan cry...for goodness sake CRIED~!OMG..sensetive nyer..was like so sissy lor omg..then mr singh come ask what happen all dan kena call out so his guhan..guhan poor thinq sia..he don meand any harm just pranks,,amin and the rest of the class can take it why not hym~!SUNGGUH SISSY~!!OMG OMG OMG.HAHAHAHAHA farnie la today...haiz i know u hated me..but can u at least tell me the reasons why..why must end our frenship like this..if she u ever wanted i knew..and i don mean her any harm..if u think i brainwash her mind upon hatinq u then i am sorry..and if u thinks thats the reason for u to hate me then...haiz.i knew u regret havinq me in ur life or maybe ur fren i am so sorry ..but its hurt when i heard other ppl say u hated me..hate is the opposite of love huh..haiz my luck..promise i wont bother u anymore..and to that girl..jsut admit that u still loves hym..it hurts me the most that u keep deninq the fact of u loving hym..betta sakitnya hati ku bila kau membenci diri ku
haiz been knowing bad news the whole of school reopen la..give up in hym al and i meant it..since he DAMNNN me alot kan gasak dier ar..psl dier..but i wont hate hym..he is not worth my tears like what efa say..wish one day he will regret...or maybe NOT`~!haiz fcuk la hym i seriously don know whats the point of hatinq me,,ok fine i do make mistakes but u cann tell me rite..~!argh forget it sakit hati jer ckp psl dier..talkinq to nabil and efa much more better~!!haha naaabil my good good bro hehe thanks ya for makinq me MUCH more better =)..oh ya i tailor my skirt.and it seems to be very very more for what i expected ...the skirt is DAMN Sshort la..heeh..but will adjust..i am not a cheap girl who show my flesh to everyone u know~!
friends make ur world go wee wee wee =)as usual didnt plan to go school la sick..stomach pain..then wanted the school end faster..coz i wan slack slack slack..then after school meets the girls..and i was having a bad pain but eat panadol felt better eat panadolss...THANKS ODELIA =)..then slack buy bubble tea ...sit weee then at last me and mira didnt wan go cca coz not feeling well =)...hehe..sit in the bus she start to camwhore~! i join the fun la DUH~!..HAHA then got this "minahs" totally a scary type..they sit at the bacl near us..we just kept out mouth shut..then suddenly one of the girls ask us" eh got tissue".while the other reply.."ehk u think what everyone bring tissue ar go shout la who bring tissue"..and we laugh..and too bad my journey ended they even say bye too me la seii...hmm guess not ALL minah is bad..cant judge the book yeah~! hoho
haiz i felt like no point livinq alr..now my motive for livinq is to makes my loves one happy even *hym...coz nothinq can makes me happy anymore.if one day i was to die..i guess i died happyly then..without regrets nor angry..i am happy with what i have...and i guess i shall not worry abt hym anymore..he knows whats right and wrong...but if i shld really die i just want to say a sentence to *hym...i wanted to say the sentence that i have been long to say..."I love you boy and i always do =)"and leave happily.and i shall go on without regrets
i wish i could turn the time around...
haiz past feew days don know what i am being doing..now day cant catch up with the girls especially siti..haiz donnoe why..i felt so guilty la everytime leave her alone..wanan ask her lepak but she cannot..i think i know why..i miss those times where me and siti so close now day we fallinq apart coz of me la ..haiz i am so sorry la girl..cant being a good fren to you..seriously from the bottom of my heart i am sorry..I PROMISE from tmr onward i will go and talk to you..omq..i am such a fcukinq fren tahat thinks for their self~!haiz..and i alr make the decision between me and hym..~!
hey...been told from my mum that i cann oly play comp on sat and sun means i cann kill my boredome here~!muahah..ogt a text msg from rash that he is sick..and yet he still wanna go shop and buy panadols for hymself...luckly ar i cannot go out if not i go his house buy for hym la sia~!and yet he still wants to go school and all..haiz..
and mira told me somethinq abt rash haha cant beilieve he even say that..it makes me love hym more and more la..seii~!
hmm yesterday MR A confess to me he likes me and all..i was like why now..i kept on thinking and thinkinq la abt hym and mr R which is which..i found out that MR A lie to me la what so ever and somemore he have guts to tell me he likes/love me??wth cann..i make up my mind that nothinq can replace hym...and i think i made my choice...i always syg hym hehe maii is booked la seii..tralalalas
mr bad boii get well soon ok XD
There’s nothing in this world
There’s not another boy that
could make me feel so sweet
i love youu boyy <3
hey haiz at last cann play comp ONLLLY for today zzz..my birthday was bloody fun i meant the girls were sweet wishing my birthday and that was sweet la thanks girl..i was speechless of what they did to me..being 15 is not bad after all..oh ya efa give me the red cardigan and mira n sham bought me tiger... sweet rite..haha and then got one day we lepak withrash all ffe blurt somethinq out..bla bla bla..nvm lor he is hot and thats the fact so go tell lor lalala...huhu..aiya short post summaries everythinq up got short time hehe so yeah..oh ya mr hawt yesterday wait for me after traininq..he sweet rite,awww hehe ;)
and i looove my mr baddie boy..
haha go register nric saw rafiie muahah..so i getting my nric ppl sooon babey..and oh ya u know how much i loves my class with koon hoon rishi samuel they all..3n3 are loves~!i love my life..what more can i ask..being a 15 yrs old girl is not bad after all :)
oh ya thanks guys for the birthday wishes~!
hey~! hmm got to post this put quite quicky coz i sneakly play comp without parents permission ..luckly i got spare internet wire la seii ..haha maii smart hor..020108so yeah first day of school meet mira,sham,odelia and efa at first..haha told mira to meet her at bridge at 6.30 and i thought i was late and all la coz i thought from my house go school 30 min.go out of the house at 6 reach at 6.17 and theres not sign of mira..siallah i damn early mira came abt 6.30+ hoho..then told her to wait for odelia but then she say we have to meet sham first go meet sham at seven eleven saw rash and you know what he was HAWWT with long pants..keep saying those line till now..hehe..was not sleepy la first day of school even chat with mira on the fone till 12 on that day..ahah meet alr go school see notice board whats my class and i am posted to 3n3 la babe.sit at hall with those monkeys in my class =X..haha sit in class room havoc la seii so noisy but fun..rishi and the gang one group all indian except sanjey..samuel and the gang all chinese.hahah and yeah i had 3 new classamates hehe long hui and the rest not sure..so after school hang out with the girls..oh ya my new teacher is ms SEE she look a very good teacher indeed and mr pon our co-form:) and oh ya mira and efa slack at MY house and we had our little gossips indeed..and i mira told me something ...=(030108went to school as per normal meet mira at bridge again make sure i not late nor early..with heavy boooks~!!then see mira not there so thinking she went first..go school she not there hoho..so saw her coming smiling hehe..then history lesson our teacher is ms joan yang..hehe got mr HAWTTT there in class happy la seii..hmmm the geog ppl was moaninq with their teacher ms tanny koh..and oh ya rishi for the FIIIIIRST time talk to me abt his geog la say..was mumbling my words coz shock =X hehes..then after school go tpy slack and eat DONUTTTS..040108hmm 3 rd day alr not bad got mt..and daniel nvr come to school :)..hehes have fun la did those craaaazy stuff with efa..and of ya the four masketeers is botak alrr..they look soooo cuuuute..hehes..then got mt ;) hehe hmm then art was interstinq indeed mr pon told as a good info abt art..and now i beilive that i make a right choise on my subject hehe..after school go tpy eat donuts and saw mr "pembastard"at the bridget there hehe mira was like squeezing my had like hell la when he saw hym and she kinda feeling down..telling me that he still loves hym and all...haiz girl guys are all..you know rite what i gonna say..haiz i know that i cant beilive your words la..hmm i wonder why you hate me so much yeah..till you cant even speak my name..guess what i though of u was true then..u only care abt abt ur perfactionism..don worry la seii i wont disturb u la since i can see hatred in ur eyes on me..and u don even wanna treat me as ur fren like u use too..i just nothing special too you rite..i hate to say this but i seriously hate u..after what u did...had enough of fun boy..i think u just had ur sweet revenge perfactly on plan on ruining my life rite..ego is totally ur game...i think here we shall end our frenship without u telling me and i can understand..i will not look at ur face,admirinq u,call u,or even communicate with u(if only its urgent la )..i shall andu can take my words without worry..i just cant beilive you did all this..i though u was different from the others..but not huh~!...
hmm like usual cannot sleep yesterday till 4 am..wanna sms the girls but sure they sleep alr so sit down and keep thinking abt the "mini" party..hoho so girl i got new locations where to have the "mini" celebrations ..and i was just thinking that we will have cakes can drinks and tibits..but we will still have MUCH MUCHIE fun rite..hohohmm so it deal then..meeting mira tmr then meet sham and efa...first day of school how does it feels like ar..sure must sit at the hall like one idoit till our leg cramp haha but i still got efa with me and my other NEW classmates to disturb la seii..hmm who will i be sitting next with during silent reading ar..haiz i will sure miss tian xin whereby we will chit chat all the way during silent reading...haiz haiz haiz and oh ya this may be the last day for me to play comp since i have to study more this year and my dad will take the internet wiere from me...anythhing picit.
