Reminsce .

Friday, October 31, 2008

HEEY.

guess its all over now between me and hym .

out of the sudden he asked for break up .

after all this while i give hym all my love without been question .

undoubting love and being reasonable .

he told me that he wont even let me go . yet again i trust his words thinking it's true .

guess all guys are the same .

don say hello when you meant goodbye .

thanks this is all i need before i headed off to perth .

thanks .

i think i gonna be alone for awhile now .

it hurts .

after 2 weeks plus we've been together why now ?

you are just no different from any other guy .

i don know .

but boyy once you made the decision theres no turning back

once bitten , twice shy .

ily yet again you hurt me .

if i knew that love shall hurt me again and again .

i don wanna be in love .

thanks .

Labels: i hate you

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

heeey ppl ~!
haha few days is hell of a day laa .
when home switch on comp and my mouse is gone
GREAT
hahah and its dad's fault
grrrr
so must use the keyboard CLICK CLICK CLICK .
hell of a time -,-
sunday got a msg from fairuz telling me that on monday plan is cancel due to something .
so i asked hym is he free that day he say yaa .
so told hym to meet me at amk there .
and rush to get ready
he told me to meet hym at amk there 2.30pm
then change it to 1.30 and change it to 3.30
wa piang and that point of time its 12 plus and i alr dress up . look kinda idoit .
ring ffe up and meet them up . and ffe was late .
AND EFA WAS EARLY LAAA .
haah went outing with empty stomach thinking that i will have lunch with fairuz . so walk walk walk
so damn sleepy k wait for mr fairuz .
meet up with hym , and i straight away went silience and that fffeeeeee !
argh he keep on teasing me caaan ? make me blush -,0
hah in the movies was hmm okeey .
cant concerntrate with the movie coz was tooo nervouse baaah .
ahahha nothing much happen . so guys don think too much alright
&& fyi mr fairuz bring his GUY fren along .
so it makes thing MUCH more complicated .
hahah malu malu malu sioool .
and mr fairuz give me a kiut lil bear which i will bring to perth .
and upon reaching home i cried while looking at the bear .

hey bby thanks for everything ,

thanks for the nights you accompany me when i cant sleep

thanks for the love you been giving me .

thanks for those silly talks when i was mad at you

thanks for being by my side when i needed you the most

thanks for being understanding & reasonable

i promise shall keep out love burning thru .

and likewise hopefully only death can do us apart bby

aku syg kamu bangeeet !

Saturday, October 25, 2008

fuck those peeps ;X

helloo peopleee ;DDDDD

ahah yesterdays was a really crazy day ar for me .

place my phone near my drinks and it kinda make my phone keypad " frozen " ar .

the bloody keypad jam laaa .WAAA PIANG EHH ,

sort bodoh try alot of time cannot . haha scold mum dad and bro coz of that bloody phone la .

scared sia must go repair . hahah some more i wanna save money for this monday . waaah damn scared laa . then dad go use hair dryer and so called dry my keypad laa . and tada oke alr -,-

HAHAH damn pissed off with the phone k .

mum told me that i can live without anything EXCEPT my phone .haha true2.

my phone has been my boyfren scandal and even my bestie la seeey .

and great i was down with flu and fever ffe called and ask me to come to braddell mac la bishan mac la amk mac la

skali skali he just called to prank me . THANKS ALOT LA FFE Eyy MUCH APPRICIATED .

so pissed off put down the phone when back to sleep . ahh and there goes my phone ring AGAIN.

with my heavy head check out my phone see who text me . it was bby ;DDDD

hahah happy la siaaa . but bro using the phone so use this time to take a nap .

talk to bby for a couple period of time .happy la siaa .

but my cold just irritated me okeey . keep on ahh choo here and there -,-

k then bby put ended his call and he told me , he wanna eat dinner and off to sleep.

but after 30 min ring hym again . hahah miss hym laa ;(.

haha and yeah talk on the phone from 12 plus till 1 pluss .

sorry bby if i disturb your sleep . ahah shall end my post today .

i got the chocolates today & i shall givehym a sml notes .

and fairuz hopefully you can make it this mondaaay :(

Thursday, October 23, 2008

heeey sexaaaay ,
yesterday when for my dental app with efa and lala at the first place but ffe && zan joined in .
reach there quite early and finish early too . so lala sugest that we go to bugis try out sheesha ^^
ahahah yeah follow her ard with empty stomach . and we tried out sheesha apple favour .
didnt try it out la but ffe was addicted to it . prank bby , but he was mad . sorry baby :(
but we are okey in the end , tuu sbb aku syg dieeeeer . tk hot temp ;D
and yaa today went to school damn scared abt the retain issue . mira && ffe very kecoooh laaa abt tk dpt report boook haiyoooooo -,-
hahah still they nvr retain and so do i . GOOOD NEWS riteeeee ;DDDDD.
hehehs went to sch with mum nice timing sit there 10 mins can go alr . so mum and bro rush to his school while i go find efa . go kfc wait for zan and ffe . then go sch for briefing abt perth la sey .
family , bby , ffe , zan , efa , mira , fatihah , sham , eugenia , valerie , yh ,sy will be miss-ed OBVIOUSLY
haiz first few nights sure cant sleep :(
hmm but back to bby .
haha plan to meet bby this monday cant wait laa . haha since 2 more weeeks i wont be in singapore .
and yeaaah muhammad fairuz bin zulkifli cant wait for next monday laaa ~
and pssst ; bby like feroro cholates hahah shall get it for you on our one month ann (:

today is my first month with *hym if we are still on.

well i don think he even care nor bother .

busy searching for new girls .

haha let hym be his life his problem .

none of mine anymore .

but boy seriously i regret be with you just by your sweet talking .

and you are my bad bad history lesson laaa !

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

hey .
didnt attend school due to headahce and lazy
wake up from sleep at 2 thanks to mira and sham phone call ^^
& baang my head start spinning !
check phone there are 9 msgs man 3 miss call from sham ! gosh -,-
haiz i'm really scared that i will retain ar even thought ppl keep on telling me i wont.
thanks guys but it didnt help much ar . the fear is still there .
its such a heart breaking moments when i saw my mum is disappointed in me.
hoping that i will pass my exam and do her proud in the end ?
haiz keep on promising my self last few years that i will do better then last time in the end ?
haiz sorry mum , sorry for not being a good daughter to you .
sorry for breaking your heart from time to time .
if i was given a second chance i promise i will do you proud .
i love you mum . i really do . forgive me :'(

talk with bby on the phone .

he is the guy i been looking forward right now .

but still the girls are the first (:

told hym that i will melt if he wear that white skinnys eyy^^ .

and bby even asked me to go mugging with hym .

hhaa since he is good in maths shall asked hym to help me .

but wonder if we are still together before the mugging session ?

i wish we last long .

likewise you are afraid that i would leave you , but deep in my heart i am terrified of losing you bby :(

ilysm !

Monday, October 20, 2008

heey
was up ^,^ .
ahah days has been better now days .
always there been accompanied by muhammad fairuz ;D.
hahah today been talking on the phone with hym for quite along time since his parents not around !
hahah shyg getting notty eyy ;D.
whahahah
aku shyg fairuz laa bey asaaal ?!
bleah bleah bleah !
* ps mr pon called me and inform me tht my parents have to come down to meet mr boo
to take my result !
gosh sure retain derh . haiz why must meet parents all . confirm parents mengamuk nyer ;( HAIZ

pass thru his profile .

and the feelings of missing hym in part of my life eventually appear .

i don know why yet time to time i been telling myself to pull it thru .

i manage but there's part of me just cant keep away the past .

but hey i shall tried ar .

he just my memories eyy . a bitter sweet one i guess ?

Sunday, October 19, 2008

heeey yaaw sexaaay readers (:
HOO hoo
yst was a pleasent surprise fo me coz mum suggest that i can rebond my hair that very day .
YIPPIE !
hahh early morning bath and straight went to bishan .
& the price not bad eyy $108 ;D
hahah 3 hours inside the salon . and i just cant keep stop moving around wahahah .
and the her one of the customer highlited her hair HOTPINK la siol !
wahahah .
wish i could highlight my hair too , oh well rebond is all i wish for rite (:
msg bby . and today he is off to johor from morning till late night :(
haiz . accompany hym till 12 am even thought i am really tired .
sacrifice aar
wahahha .
till now still waiting for his msg's . grrr .
oh well tmr is promotion day and i am really scared that i will retain siol :S
AND shyg trust me eyy you wont retain nyer laa (:

Friday, October 17, 2008

hey yaaw .
5 day with shyg alr woor
haha loving every moments with hym (:
his silly jokes nor laughter .
efa told me that i look much more happier with fairuz then you-know-who .
wooits .
yeah i guess so .
yst cried fo hym since he told me that he will just go mia for 2 weeks due to stress of his studies .
debate with hym and he give up , don have the heart to leave me hooor .
gagag ily la silly boyy .
always said sorry for hsi wrong without having his ego or whatsoever .
hmm i don care what ppl said bout you as long as your love is true ;D
k take caree babes!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

heeey back to blogging yaw .
and once again i'm attached .
putting all those memories aside && keeping the new one alive ;D
i've promise myself to cherish hym , love hym & be faithful to hym .
and not going to repeat my old mistakes like i did with my previous relationship
he just come up out of now where
hahah
since monday i've been listening to " cari pacar baru " and told efa that i wanna find new boy .
and on the day i am attached with hym (:
haha even though its too early i am learning to love you bby ;D
and th love shall grow day by day .
and now i'm scared that i shall lose you .
&& get info that my dear tiffany is attached (:
congratz girl .
wooits .

Saturday, October 11, 2008

hey ohhh ~
hahah 2 days straight went out with the peeps .
on the 9th october went hari raya outing with them
went many house's we went at 10am came back home at 11 pm how cool
then yesterday went bugis to get my stuff .
manage to get my cap shirt bad && half cardigan bby ~
wooits plan to get white skinnys && boyfren tee with the girls ;D
hahah smlm shopping sakaaan la siaaa
happy but fun , at the end of the day played bowling.
which i don even know how to play . bump into zul and guys .
kecoh bodooow .
hahahh hmm i wanna plan raya outing with ex-mfps but how do i get their contacts ~
GOSH !

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

he is attached with proud (:
let hym be yaaa . no use crying over a spilled milk .
haha i know it all along la .
guys ~ all the same .
hmph tmr going hari raye outing with the guys yeaaah ~ waahahah
hmm there were the one's thats always there for me eyy . if talking bout love . hahah its every where but you just have to search for one .
thats all for today

Friday, October 3, 2008

i guess its all over between us . i fail to be part of your life . and what hurts the most is that i lose someone that meant so much to me . i knew all along that we aint gonna be together of that long && that already prove me enough . thanks for them memories even for a short while . sorry if i am being a pain in a neck since we've been together . even thought its hard to let you go but i shall be strong and faced life ahead .

break up with bby since the msg he sent to me on the 1th of october ! first day of raya some more . cant sleeep called ffe up but he is busy . so cried all alone . yeah i cried coz of hym second time cried for a guy . haha i knew by crying wont held us up . and i admit that i am at fault . and i glad i undone my mistakes by letting hym go . and bby i knew there's someone else in your mind recently . and i accepted my fate . even thought it hard to forget the memories but i shall be strong (:
yesterday didnt have to attend school so went hari raya outing and still thinking bout hym :(
msg ying hui and she kept me accompany . and girl wait for hym if you think he worth your heart . don rush in a thing called relationship . know hym well okey before you and hym be official && don ever regret you reactions . haha so yeah went to mak unggal house at admiraty then took train thinking that cck lrt would lead me to hougang ! silly me . so ended took bus at cck inter then ended up at bukit timah at last took cab and it cost me 20 bucks la . plus extra charge waaa piang leey . haha nvm nvm . meet up with erriyan . hah he is all grown up . wahahah disturb me all the way . silly boyy. plan to meet up with sharil . waited for hym at hougang mall he didnt show up so went home laa -,- .
grrrr .
todaaay did maths . all the question 1 marks 2 marks . haha but still didnt manage to do. sleep all the waaay . haha ying hui some more can cheat ask me for answer . ~ wahahahaa .
after school had break fast at mac ~ then accompany ffe buy donut while i bought one for myself and ended up 2 donuts ! hahah and ffe is smuggling DONUTS in his bag wahahahahahahahha . okey lame . tried to cheer myself up even faking a smile to show ppl that i am alright which is i am NOT . hmm when inter with efa window shopping then goes home . and sleep . cancel hari raya outing today .
* oh ya plan to go hari raya outing with amk peeps with beatty (: haha it would be a great BANG with the cliques maaaan woooit . hmm make it on 10 oct or 11 oct ar ?

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

today was first day of raya & i am glad that i enjoy-ed my day , oke i lied !
collection of green packets able to receive 100 plus . haha
go to watson and buy my sunsil shampoo and make up plus contact lens ended up with 67 bucks -,-
haahahah cant control my money arr .
whahaha plan to rebond but hey shall try the sunsil first ar see how my hair ended up .

msg bby .
and my heartache miserbly . didnt wish to explain what had happen .
i am just confuse with what you wanna do bby .
just cant control my tears. just thought you would be the best i ever had , you turn out to be the opposite . but yet i give you chance after chance letting myself hurt just to know you better and hopfully you learnt from your mistake && hey ppl makes mistakes too.
i know i shld have give you freedom but like i said i am doubting your love towards me .
i don know whats on your mine bby .
likewise once again i am sorry

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