Reminsce .

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

F%*#@ mood !
annual awards practice is tiring .
addy asked me to join hym for his friend picnic at sentosa .
i think i'm gonna decline the offer , maaf aye .
&& mira is coming for ncd lurh sey !

i think i had enough of all this nonsence .
seriously i'm tired of thinking && wondering whats gonna happen next .
" ohh mai you are a nice girl blablabla "
yeah , i'm nice thats why GUYS take advantage of . beest kaan ?
pffft , stop giving me a confuse feelings .
don say something that you && your heart arent sure at , without you knowing you were giving them hope && crush them at the same time .
heartbreaking enough ?
You've told be before that you've been heartbroken
& yet you are doing the same thing to me .
Arent you the same with the girls who have break your heart before ?
i'm tired trying to cherish every moment i had coz i know they wont last for long .
same goes to other guys .
aku dh serik nk bbl ngan lelaki lagy .
& most probably i start to hate guys because of couple of guys which shows me that they arent supposed to be trusted at the first place

i'm going to delete all my friendster friend && start all over again .
& for my msn account i'm going to creat new one and invite those who are at least sincere to be with .
no use having a msn account will all the contact when only 10% of your contacts chat with you rite ?
i'll update you guys again k

wanted by many. taken by none. looking at some. waiting for one .

` many thanks to izzuan && halim for making me feel so much better (:

i think i shouldnt put much hope on you ,
or else i'll be the one who's be heartbroken at the end of the day :(

Monday, March 30, 2009

20 random things about me

1. I love long ride bus , at the same time i'll be dreaming && blast music from my mp3
2. I hardly gave my girls a cold shoulder && i never have the heart to do it because they are just too sweet to be pissed at .
3. When i'm really bored i'll blast my mp3 & i wont even care about my surrounding .
4. When i'm mad , please don talk to me , let me cool down first , because i'll give you a shit attitude if your force me .
5.Among my friends , mira , efa && ffe know how make me back to myself when i'm angry (:
6.i'll go hay wire if there's a dead silence around me .
7. I'm being too friendly till people take advantage of me .
8.I'll melt everytime i see babies or toodler with their innocent face .
9. I'm loud && noisy
10. I just hates it if people making fun about the elderly or the handicap .
11. I'll fight back for my friend if you mess with them , trust me i would (:
12.Whenever i'm into that someone , no other guys would matter to me anymore .
13. Whenever my mp3 plays miss independent , my spirit will be lifted up .
14 .I tend to get flu if i didnt get enough sleep due to stress or the morning is too cold .
15. I love my family && friends more than myself .
16.I know i aint beautiful nor preety thats why i don care what others gonna say about me . (: 17. I just hates it when people stare at me for no reason . cant they at least smile ?
18.I hate flying cockroach .
19.When ever i receive a message from someone special , i will smile to myself
20. I cant live without my phone nor music (:

mai rindu ~~muhd naqiuddin afiq~~
mai masih tunggu sms dari kamu (:

sometimes the person you love most tend to hurt your feelings
but actually the person who hurt your feelings is the one who loves you the most .♥

Sunday, March 29, 2009

i guess everything is settled then ,
we were in the situation when were about to leave each other && he relunctantly agree .
i cried real bad && my heart aches real bad .
its been since i had the feelings eversince i broke up with wan .
he apologize to me for his acts , admit he was in the wrong too
&& i gave hym the second chance as my feelings for hym were still going strong .
i made a deal with hym that there wont be anymore secrets between us .
and i'll just keep my handphone inbox full of his msg'es && my peeps only .
yg lain paham2 jer la maksud mai k (:
ohh well toodles ♥

assalamualaikum ,

i cant sleep , so i'll post now , time check : 1.54am

yesterday night was horrible i tell you , i was so sleepy && i have conference with ffe and lala , i really wanted to sleep they force me not to put down the phone , jahat ehy dorang !

raudah was admitted to hospital due to her asmatic && will be discharge tommorow .

get well soon cuzzy (:

my aunty was admitted too due to her diabetes .

get well soon aunty .

rush && visit raudah at kk , where by coincidencly bump on to mira :}

then rush go to sgh to visit aunty , meet up with my lovely boy gyas , its been since that i've meet up with hym :}

meet this sweet lil boy who came to me && ask me drink . since threre's a vending machine near me .

i wanted to buy for hym but his mum insisnt since he is having cough .

hoho , sit down at the vistor room with boredom since afiq had something on && lala wasnt around .

&& suddenly i got a msg wan , he want to talk things out so he ring me .

we settle things && he explain to me everything .

then afiq msg me && things got abit tense .

i don wish to eloborate ,

as usual when ever caca got a lorry , we will tour around singapore && had our very late supper .

went to tanjong pagar , where there's a malaysian train which will pick up singaporean to malaysia && malaysian to singapore .

&& its not the normal mrt train its the old2 type of train with a loooong railway .

went there && had our dinner && mostly there were more malaysian then singaporean

i can see the difference by how they dress , coz mostly malay guys in singapore would dress preety much the same . mostly not ALL of them urh .

so its easy to see the difference (:

while my relative && family took their dinner , i went round looking at the train station ?

firdaus told me that the place use to be a church during the british times && its been rebuild to be a railway station ,

if i have time i'll go on && have my research on that .

so yeah , finish up their dinner && pick lala and kak hazra at vivo since they end there working shift .

i swear that i shouted lala name till those people at the vivo city bus stop turn and look at me .

you cant blame me per , i miss my cuzzy so much :}

day end well & lala agreee to accompany me to my dental appoinment . (:

to afiq ♥ ;

i cant go to sleep due to you .

i didnt know things would turn out this way.

yes i admit that i was in a wrong , if i were you i would react in the same way ,

but you should at least trust me rite ?

well i guess things had already happen .

i'm sorry i truly am , i'm sorry if i have hurt your feelings .

i will make it up to you if i could .

you know that you are the most precious guy to me now .

i will be waiting for your msges to tell me that you have forgive me

&& i'm prepare to lose you .

; ku hanya akan menerima kn jikalau kau pikir ini jalan terbaik

to izzuan ;

i guess you've explain why you've been ignoring me after the break up .

&& i guess your reason is acceptable enough ,

its true what you've said ,

: its gonna be harder for me to move on if we were still contacting each other after our break up .

&& yes i have to admit at times the memories of you still lingers in my head .

i've move on bit by bit by the hard way & i guess you too .

take care & all the best to the new relationship you had in the future && hopefully she'll show you the love that you've been waiting for & your heart will heal at the same time .

rest assure that i'll always be there for you when ever you need me .

my two sweetheart ;

ewaaan !

railway !

Friday, March 27, 2009

♥ ; cinta itu tidak senang untuk dimiliki

jadi hargailah cinta selagi ia ada

well today sucks big time urh .

early in the morning my phone jam && i can send msg'es nor call whereby my prepaid is still full ,

thinking that maybe my prepaid is jam i top up my phone which is supposed to be saved for next month -,-

&& obviously i didnt have enough sleep due to fixing my phone , i sleep for couples of hours only .

brother && mum became mechanic && unscrew my phone , after being screw again the phone is perfactly fine , urh !

waste my prepaid only ~

sms the peeps if they mind accompany me to far east , no reply except for efa .

i'm already cranky about my phone && now them . GREAT .

so when mrt station as usual , waited for mira , ring her up , asked her to come down , she said yes .

few minutes later she sms me that she just woke up .

BONUS POINTS .

nvm2 i still wait for her

sms to both of them " lain kali org msg tk ya reply k (: "

" next time ppl msg no need to reply k (: "

being sacrastic enough .

got a msg from ffe he too just woke up .

BINGO !

meet them up , without saying a single word && blast my mp3 , walk ahead without looking back .

jay walk at the road && i nearly been hit by a taxi driver && i gave hym a cold stare .

whereby i'm in the wrong . hee

sweeswee i manage to avoid if not there will be the end of me (:

mira && ffe try to sort things out with me , but i just don feel like talking .

So i just keep silence . && obviously that made ffe really pissed . sorry .

till i'm in class , the environment are just too warm too be angry .

so i'm back to myself again .

sorry to ffe && mira for my sucky attitude just now . thousand apology ~

i love you guys alright .

hoho , had studying skill course && i swear my coach are the kaki gerek !

had fun with the activity , i swear he is a hot hunky with a great attitude .

tk habis2 ngan " dude"

HOHO , snap pic of the two coach with the class (:

didnt manage to get his blog but i have his email .

coach@highachiever.com i think , aint really sure ,

slack with the peeps && talk things out ,

ohoh zan birthday is coming , planning to make cookies ?

hoho , mum call && accompany her to geylang .

the weather is unspeakable urh . panas gileeer

had fun with her && the day end well too . (:

afiq oh afiq , mai rindu kamu (:

&& to that riezman or whatsoever yourname is

i'm sorry i'm not intersted in kenalans with random guy

who surprisingly get my no from the bus-stop ?

so don waste your time , coz i wont entertain you .

maaf ye (:

shine bright sun

coach yg && coach nikki (:

usm david on the right . && simi ~

Thursday, March 26, 2009

if god create each one of us our soulmate , how would we know which is ours ?

today sucks seriously .
sec 4e,4t && 5n is having careet talks
where by the sec 4n is stuck in class with lesson .
BORING ~
hmm , slack at mac , then went home && went to bed straight .
pffft .

to [insertnamehere]
you've been a wonderful guy ever since i know you , && you've been the one who's replace all the smile that has been missing && i thank you for that . Even so we know each other for a short period of time , i have already fall for , i know that you are someone that i can depend for . && somehow what makes me attract to you is how opposite you are to me , in the sense of our taste of music to the chocolate we like .
We've made up our mind not to get in a relationship due to our own reason , doesnt meant you love some one you have to his rite , its the heart that all that matters . (: once again , thanks for being someone who there for me . (:

♥ ; my fear now is the fear of losing you ,
coz good things always came to an end always

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

oh well ,
woke up at 3pm in the afternoon && i receive 5 messages kot .
one of them is from raffe , sorry urh ffe , your plan was cancel .
tk der mood urh nk keluar , lagi hujan . sorry kae .
mr A was outside && he told me that he'll msg me when he reach home .
and till now i've been waiting for his message . rindu urh .
at last i receive his message , tros senyum lebar-lebar (;
my head went spinning right now , waiting for break-fast at 7 plus .
sumpah mai rase macam nk pengsan .
i better go && get ready for my break fast .
toddles ~
&& ohh i love my blog song , ader makna disebaliknyer .

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Its been since i've update , all because mum took internet wire .

ler kalau ader pn , i don have much things to do , msn no one even bother to chat with me whaaat .

&& ms jamie told me that i'm cheap just because that i've tuck in my extended tie in my blouse .

WHAT THE f k (:

like what mira said , even for me to born have to pay money for the hospital fees && my food && my daily expense , so at least i'm WORTH something alright .

YOU don have the right to just shooot at me calling me cheap . fyi who are you to judge me .

i'm kept silence coz it was early in the morning && i'm tired .

ader pergi ader balik kan (:

i'm not having bad intention here but hmm she just a teacher && have no rights to call me CHEAP , i'll shall report this matter to my teacher && see what she can do .

even so nothing happen , at least i've do something , i've to stand for my rights rite .

gaah , i don wan to dwell on this matter , what goes around come around (:

hoho attend school just now && coincidencly efa && huz didnt attend school , i was ALONE urh . k not that lonely , its my classmates are nice much of people so somehow another they will be beside me && accompany me talk (:

especially those 2 matrep && sanjey ;DDDD.

the attendance of the class is getting from bad to words . today only 8 girls came ?

the rest absent .

i miss meiyi laughter la !

it was raining && it was FREEEZING , urh , shivering in class la ,

somehow i didnt receive any msg from mr A , coz he was still in his lala-land since the weather is preety nice to tuck in to bed .

at last receive his msg around 12 plus , which made me smile at least a little for today (:

school ended , waited for n2 class to end their lesson which happens to be at 2pm .

beforehand mum called asking me to accompany her to see doctor , she cant walk properly due to her leg .

so RUSH to bishan took waited for her at the bus stop , && she came alighted the bus with limping , i swear she was really limping ,

thanks to the deyi girl which helps me to alight mum from the bus , see how nice singaporean are (:

accompany mum && ate lunch , went home , bath then straight jack i was at my bed snoring .

peenaaat giler punya la .

&& tomorrow there will be a day off for beatty-ian since its e-learning day ! double yea!

only one proble , i've forget my password ar , cm ner ?

thats all for today (;

mirasayang

} like wise i've told you i may not good with my words , but you know i've trying hard to make a smile on your face . Be strong . Coz i know you've been thru alot till today , and its been you who i am rite now , facing each && every problem with faith . The only thing i can do is to be by yourside always . iloveyou girl (:

izzuan DEARESTex

} oh well , i've been thru this 1 months plus feeling horribly heartbroken . But i guess i've handle it well till now , you chat with me just now , asking me how am i . I was surprise , at least you still care . But oh well you are someone's else sweetheart && i know where i'm supposed to stand . You've even keep all those love letter that i gave you && my sex band . && i smile when you told me that you've been reading all those love letter all over again . I cherish the memories we had last time && never be forgotten , coz you've the best guy i've know ever since i found you & i wish for nothing else , but fate wasnt on our side either . Take good care of yourself , you know that i will always be there for you if you need me , but for now take good care of her , she loves you whole heartly && it would be heart breaking for a girl to know his guy having some other affair with other girls , coz i've been thru there before && i'm a girl too remember . thats all for you

What About Now - Chris Daughtry

its a nice song which i've heard from afiq (: addicted tros

Sunday, March 22, 2009

everything was alright , me && ffe have ring mira up , we've been talking from 12am to 3 am i guess ?
i've let out what i've been keeping inside
i'm the one who tear up during the convo .
hahah ! emotional enough yeaaa ?

sometimes you wonder why i've been keen enough to my friendship .
ohh well , coz i know that most probably this is my last year && the last year i've gotta spend with them in the same school .
i've wasted my time being all mess up && don even knows what the value of friendship is .
&& this is the only year that i'm go a million mile just to cherish everyone of them .
if i still could , i will .
i don need any typical guy to be accompany me and soon on , coz i know the 3 fellow is all enough for me , for now .
so therefore now i'm going to be a babysitter of mira && be with her as much as possible .
coz i've already made my vows to raffe .
haha .
as for raffe && efa , you know i love you guys too rite ♥

Saturday, March 21, 2009

wah bored , so i've gone thru my old blog

http://www.maigile.blogspot.com/

hahah that wasnt the link lurh but i've change it so its easier for me to look thru .

kekek sia , tengok post lame .

seriously my post was all lame && childish .

bbl skit nyer skodeng . haha . kater sec 1 ~

pffft .

_______________________________________________________________________

this is what mira sent me ;
and mai , i'm sorry if you were to find out that i'm gonna do some silly silly stuffs i used to do .
i just needa be wild as not to be hurt
i'm truly sorry .
i love you , and the rest .
i'm just so so sorry ..
anything , just beep me . insya''allah , aku tk promise aku akan balas korang .
{:

mira , asal kau macam gini
i swear you are making me && ffe worry .
i've tried to call you but you reject my calls coz you were outside
this is not the mira i've known , the mira i've known use to be a strong girl
but now ?
babe iloveyou , pls don make us disappointed .

suuuup !
blog-hopping some bloggers .
haiyo , their tag board is full of spam lurh .
korang dh tk der kerje kee ?
-,-

its sucky saturday AGAIN .
pfft . oh well its raining AGAIN .
&& i'm stuck at home AGAIN .
online my msn , no one chat with me . kesiaaan ~
at time , some msn guy will chat with me only if they are bored .
mendak jer cari aku .
you think what ? i'm your part tyme entertainer urh .
pantat tol .
nasib ader adik , irritating pn tk per urh ,
at least he'll keep me company .
But sadly he's out to bugis , leaving me miserably at home . grrr .
&& my walkie talkie has gone missing to nowhere which makes me feeling sucky && lonely .
for mira she had her own companion to attend to .
thank god its monday in 2 days time && school hols is over . miserable march hols -,-
at least in school there's something i could do at least then stuck at home . gaaaaaaaaah .
thats all for today .

Friday, March 20, 2009

current addicition ; chocolate sundaaae .

gosh ! air liur melilir tengok tuu gmb

any kind soul who is kind enough to buy me chocolate sundae . preeety pleaseee .

nothing intersting happen today , stuck at home with craving of chocolate sundae .

padahal mac donald kt depan rumah ! pemalas tol eyy aku niy !

hahah , && the best thing was i'm caught with flu , CBONGZ tol .

and today my handphone doesnt event receive any message from anyone .

baaaaik , as time goes by , my handphone gonna be fill with dust since its not be use anymore :x

Thursday, March 19, 2009

sup darling !
miss mee ? hahahah .
yesterday didnt sleep till 2 , looking for blog background .
find one for mira too .
photoscape mcm pantat , had to click several time then it will save the pic .
sakit siol jari !
todaaaay , as promise , meet up with mira && ffe .
since i've promise her that i'll be supporting her .
but i was too late , by the time i've wake up && call ffe the competition was over -,-
but nevermind , i still meet her up better then rotting at home rite ?
hoho , train-ed to raffles place && follow ffe to lau pa sat since they have their lunch there .
mira got in 4TH place .
i meant at least something rite . && cant blame her , her opponents were all poly students which is waaaaay profesional then her .
while she is the ONLY secondry school girl !
so yeaah , share alot of stories .
after lunch walk around . then from raffles walk till to esplanade ;DDDD
&& there's a forfeit for me since i wanted to walk , there forfeit was that ; iF i said that i'm tired from the walk i'll have to treat them drinks .
hohoho , i was on it maan .
jalan nye jalan ffe wanted to stop && take photo , i say lurh no need , somemore i'm tired if i have to stop && take photo then walk again .
pfffft , ffe nyer badut happily smile coz i fall onto his trick by saying i'm tired so have to treat them drinks .
leeeeer , hhahah macam2 urh korang !
walk afew round then ended our day there .

let the picture do the talking ;

100 ways of not saying your name

woah ! it's printed on a boxers !

kaki aku cm lidi sia ! ; satu2 pantat flat

old blogskin .