hey oh ppl~!haha yesterday cannot sleep la donnoe why till three i was still wide awake hoho..haiz..yesterday i was wondering you know..i don mind if he forgets my name,my face or even my smile..but how could he forget the love soo EASILY~!..haiz.. i miss the times where he msg me just to greet me GOOD morning or good night even thats just too common but it brighten up my day so nicely..till now i still waiting for that person to greet me a good morning everytime i woke up from my sleep..or maybe a just sweet hi would do..i want to share my tears sorrows and joy with hym like i use too..but he would not even care or bother to hear it out like he use too..sharing with my gurlfren and sharing with hym is a TWO different things~!...sometimes when i am alone i wish that my fone will beep for his message like it use too last time...saying those farnie jokes that will just tickle my tummy...and at times i will accompany hym till he is asleep at night...like it use too..but now???he totally don even care what i don..even he bothers to know if i still alive or maybe dead...he don even care not at all...all those are memorys which i just keep on digging till theres no end of it..everynight i view the pictures of hym smiling thru out that will soothers me to sleep with tears on my eyes..now then do you know why i jsut keep on rembering hym not matter how much i said that i hate hym..what is so special abt hym anyway if you happen to ask..what is so special abt hym anyway till u are like this..haah let me tell u the answer..he was the first and the last person or maybe guy making me smile.even though i use to have the other "he" in my life still he cant make me smiling like how he use to make me smile..he just leave a verry big impact a big one..his sweetness gentlement and the person who doesnt know how to make other ppl hurt thats just the guy i been looking for..the smile that nvr end for me brighten up my day even though my day was a horrible one..i once told efa..if one day i was to find a guy i may b looking for the EXACT person like hym even though its impossible..;) i shall end the post abt hym now ..posting abt hym just reilive everything in my heart ...
haiz early morning ask mum if she remembers if my birthday ..and the answer is yes~!..haha so i was asking her la maybe this year i can have my own birthday cake like last time i use to when i was small..i ask her that i don mind if its small i just felt like having it this year since i was 15 and i been planning to have it since last year..she said yes~!wee hee..then i was planning if i am having the cake i should ought to celebrate with my girlfren..they have been with me when i am up or down condition..;) and since my gurlfren is going to be 15 and our frenships that nvr end they also should celebrate it with me ..and the cake is not only for me but its for them too..so ya i work out the plan alr where is the place..and only invite the girls coz the "party" is a small and simple one...and last year when he is still in good conditon i was planning to invite hym since he also was a special person to me..but not till now i guess...he don even care..so yeah..chat with mira abt the plan and she agreee and she say the gurls will work it out..hoho maii tk taw malu la..hehe but i will add money la..since its not only for me..its for our frenship girls~!!so yeah haha..wee this year gonna be a special year for me and the girls :)..haha oh ya 2 more day school reopen gonna meet mira 6.30 at bridge..~!weeeee i gonna have soooo much fun this year :)))
what makes her so much special then me ?
