ok..i told mira everythinq la my hearts out abt hym all thinking that i sholuld not keep it to my self and have the
guilt the rest of my life liking hym all..thinking that she will be ok since she looks fine and all..and she is really open la.
she don mind at all..and then i told siti..talkinq to her makes me think of the thing i said to mira..i am just to egoist just
thinking abt myself without thinkinq abt others first..haiz i meant siti has the point la..i meant they just gone thru this whole
thing and i blurt out the words to her thinkinq that they was broke up abt few years ago~!omg foolish of me la =___="
i am so sorry mira deeply sorry..i will not think abt hym anymore or what..i will restrain my self from hym thinkinq that
there will be no chance of me and hym.he really loves u and i cant just bargain like that.i cannot think abt myself..
shit la why am i so foolish man..haiz now i felt the guilt of my WHOLE life..god..i don think i deserve hym anymore..
and maybe i don deserve hym at the first place after what i have don especially to mira my gurlfren.>~!
i just felt really down and talkinq to amira or siti and apolagize to her till she forgive me would me la..
GOD~!!! i am so egoist and bad la..should have such a nice fren like them..they still forgive me even the biggest mistake i have done.
i don think i deserve a fren like u all or hym at all...JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME~!
