everybody has its own secret huh ! well i have my own!..
well at times i have a low self asteem. and at times i think that i don deserve any"guys" friend such as ppl added me in frienster and wanna know more abt me, coz of the "preety" editted pictures.
whereby in life so called in school i am just the same as ugly betty added with horrible skin and eye bags.
at time i just felt like break down and cried think i shouldnt buy the "preety" out fit to suit me coz i don deserve it.
i am just a horrible ugly freak which wanna feel likes how it feels to be preety.
at times when ppl called me names , i just feel like slashing myself and wonder when my time will come.
and i felt that i have 2 different personality whereby i am a "preety" lady with beutiful skins while reality i look like ugly betty!
and sometimes the i was just faking a smile on my face.
think why i deserve a wonderfull ppl on my life whereby i don appriciate myself.
3 ppl had talk to me straight forward passing out straight comment abt me right on my face,but still i put up a smile.
and sometime i just keep dreaming that my secret crush shall be mine and keep on dreaming without realising the reality.
and sometime i felt like locking my self in a room and nvr come out .
this thursday coming and i am not sure if i am looking forward for it with the secret i just share,
i wonder when i can be a preety lady is well like by everyone without be given nasty comment .
and i envy those preety ladys out there
reality and fantast don clash with each other
sorry guys this post quite emotinally DISGUSTING!
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